
Here we go, again 😬😓🤷♀️.
In 2018, right before undergoing treatment for breast cancer, my friend offered me a photo shoot, including this picture of me. I am sorry to say that it is now time for Pre-Cancer Treatment Photo Shoot 2.0 😔.
In November, my father-in-law, Jim, was giving Jared a father’s blessing. Afterward, I was asked if I would like one, too. Normally, I would have declined. However, I felt moved, and I asked him to give me a father’s blessing as well. Much to everyone’s amazement, shortly after he started giving me the blessing, he paused, and the spirit in the room changed. To me, it felt very familiar and warm. I didn’t understand what I was feeling. Jim proceeded to tell me that this was a blessing given through him not only from God the Father but also from my own dad, who was there with us in the moment. Jim told me that my dad wanted me to know that he would be very close to me in the months that would follow, that I would be able to feel him near and that he was watching over me and my kids. I was, of course, in tears and also in a little bit of shock. Never, in 50 years of living, had I had such a singular experience. At the time, I had no idea that the cancer was back and how much I would feel utterly destroyed and would need my dad near. But God knew.
Most people, when finding out you have cancer, don’t really know how to respond. It is a hard thing to hear. A couple of my friends, however, brought me over roses. I received 3 dozen yellow roses. If any of you know my dad, you might remember that yellow roses remind me of him. They were his thing. He said I would feel him near through this trial. One of my friends said she had picked up another boquet but felt inspired to put it down and get me the yellow ones. I know it was my dad. I felt you, Daddy. Your cheerful spirit showed up with the yellow roses, and I felt your arms in the hug of a friend. Thank you.
Up until now, I have remained fairly reticent about our personal affairs, but I am so surrounded by great people that I want to say thanks for your love, prayers, and support. As a family, this cancer news lands right in the middle of the most challenging epoch of our lives. So, I guess when it rains, it pours 🤷♀️. My heart holds many thanks to all those who have been patient without knowing why we have been so MIA for so long. Many have stepped up, without judgment, to fill needs that I didn’t have the strength to. And yet others have been kind and understanding with our unavailability and last-minute cancellations.
Friends, please forgive me if I do not respond to all texts, phone calls, and messages. I have not felt emotionally prepared or able to talk much about things or to even be very social. It’s just mostly overwhelming. I know I am not being polite. I love you all, and I am really sorry!

